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April 08, 2006
Too many
Maybe it's because I really believe it's going to be spring now, or maybe it's because I feel my life focus changing in a significant way, but right now I feel encumbered with an overwhelming sense of too many.
Too many clothes I don't (or can't) wear.
Too many books I haven't read, don't have time to read, but can't bring myself to part with.
Too many papers unwritten.
Too many books on too many reading lists that I can never hope to do justice to.
Too many ideas about what might be possible in the two-three years ahead.
Too many discouragements about life's realities (not the least of which was the $.10 per gallon increase in the price of gas overnight yesterday).
Too many bills, too many looming expenses, too many things I don't have the money for.
Too many times I want to sit down and write, and too few spaces (mentally and physically) to do so.
I've never been much of a minimalist, but right now I have a strong desire for a nearly empty closet, a few sparsely populated drawers, and large open space with select pieces of furniture, a modestly stocked pantry and a nearly empty refrigerator. In a former life community I inhabited, we called such a lifestyle "traveling light" - as in: if you want to travel fast and far you have to travel light. I guess I've got a travel itch, cuz I really want to lighten up.
Posted by cageyer at April 8, 2006 11:38 AM
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i was just having this conversation w/gb the other day, about how he knows he's got just the right amount of *stuff* in syr right now b/c in under 24 hours, if he had to split town, he could box the books, ship them to wherever he's going, & fit everything else he cares about into his truck.
i feel the same way, but i know there are always competing threads. i'm really the type who's meant to be from an OLD family: one with land, w/a homestead, so i can *keep* everything i never want to lose forever in some safe off-stage barn or attic somewhere while still running with only what i need--& while continuing to whittle-down the list of things falling in that n-word category.
Posted by: tyra at April 8, 2006 04:33 PM