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February 24, 2005

projectiles elaborated (p.1)

i have several justifications (& why this is a space for listing justifications i suppose i should consider later & x-post to 711) for including that entirely non-illuminative rambling about a project i haven't really started yet:

• because i wrote it late at night & amused myself in the process
• because i'm hoping if the list is in several places i'll be more likely to keep up with it
• because on some level i believe (although i'm not perhaps as convinced right now as i ought to be) that other people will read this, and that if they'll read this maybe they'll think the questions it poses are interesting, and if they're interested too that'll help keep me interested
• because i am interested, but unless it's for credit, my interests only happen in 10-second spurts between other things
• because i haven't posted that exploration of "polytasking" yet
• because i don't really know why i'm interested, how well my interests are going to network with one another (geeks who insist that's not a verb are rolling in their graves), or whether or not i can sustain it
• because i'm hoping to sneak up on sustainability with this one

i've started no less than 10 conversations with my beloved advisor about what i think i'll do a diss about (& a shout-out to a. jabbur, who says "i love that word: dissertate. it sounds like something one should do in the bathroom"). i have got to stand still long enough to do this. and to do that--i finally get it--i've got to see how it connects the all the other things i considered & still care about & couldn't keep hold of in isolation with one another, even if i can't develop or thoroughly explore the implications of all of those connections. if i know it's a web, and i can document that connectivity, even for myself, then i'm hoping i can transcend that "fly" feeling grad students supposedly all get trapped in & be my own spider instead.

listening to: moxy fruvous | spiderman

which isn't far from being batman.

Posted by ttobryan at February 24, 2005 09:11 AM

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