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March 15, 2005
on my way to san jose
i would love to say i've got some fab presentation geared up for CCCCs, but i don't; i don't even have a mediocre one. did that last year; this year i'm just along for the ride, to see what there is to see. no pressure is nice. feeling like i'm spending an awful lot of money to go out there and not do anything is less nice.
feeling like the virtues of networking and meeting people and listening in and experiencing are less valuable than coming home with a line to add to my CV is much less nice. i think i'll pretend i don't think that's an externally-generated value-scale, assume it's my own bad attitude getting in the way, & try to lose it in chicago; they have so many there, i'm sure, even owing just to the weather, that no one will notice another.
i would also love to say that i'm looking forward to the listening and the networking and the professional engagement, but the honest truth is right now i'm totally burnt; i'm looking forward to seeing leaves, to a day-trip into the wine country with an old friend & his wonderful folks, whom i haven't seen in an alarming number of years, to dressing like jen (& if her wee travel-irritations are the worst today throws at me, i'll be tickled positively pink!) tomorrow, to the promise of "bring sunscreen and a bathing suit," to six whole days without a flake or clump or melt-slick side-walk glaze of snow.
of course i'm taking work on the plane: vygotsky, lave & wenger, a whole collection of other books (all the smallest ones in the stack, for obvious logistical reasons) i should have read already but couldn't possibly. with nothing else to do for 14 hours in the air betwen now & my return (& another 3 or 4 in airports), i might actually finish a few of them. or, since they don't really feed airline passengers anymore, i might tear them apart instead and eat the pages.
listening to:
Posted by ttobryan at March 15, 2005 07:11 AM