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May 15, 2005
this is for HEATHER...
...and anybody else out there who reads this & a) wonders why they bother checking back, when i never say anything or b) thinks i'm secretly a supergenius & should be much more talkative about it or c) wants to buy me another cape for my collection. i've got one with an "e" for "exception-girl" and another with some as-yet un-drafted insignia for "insightful-fortune-cookie-girl" (this for my ability to always come up with a pithy saying about courage or suchlike any time it seems even vaguely warranted).
HI, HEATHER!
it's official. i'm losing my mind.
i was taking 2...and 3/4? 3 1/3? courses this term? 2 actual, 3-credit (which in a phd program is just a laugh-riot of a designation) courses, one audit i did almost all the reading for despite there never being credit in the picture, and one independent-study variously designed and redesigned until nobody was really sure what it was supposed to look like. i was also teaching a class-and-a-half, which is a fair average; at the beginning of the term it really was 2, and by the end entirely 1, so the math will do. those i'm thankful to be done with, not because i wanted them to end--i never do--but because everybody else who's behind in their schoolwork is also moaning about getting their grading done, and i get to project a focused, one-track-only moan instead.
i did a lot of early work for the audit, and then phased out when the pond ph got not-exactly-to-my-liking. i finished one of the credit-courses on time. i finished the independent-study on time. & i've just pushed back the pushed-back deadline for my last one a little longer, which was supposed to give me more time to work, and has, instead, given me more time to stare glassy-eyed at the screen, vaccuum, drink tea, and woolgather. i get more work done when i'm cheerleading. last stint of reading-for-school i did was while playing spy in the empty late-night office-halls. the wool i've gathered, by the way, is neither fluffy nor untamed, but is already dyed and neat-woven into a soft tartan i'll never get to wear.
i need to get materials on the web for the online course i start teaching the 23rd by tuesday, which is the day after tomorrow. i should have been doing that all weekend while i was shirking my reading list. i need to annotate the last 2 books i've read, & read & annotate another 5 or 6--and then write a PAPER--by next-next thursday, by which time i'll already be a week into the summer class i'm sitting in on and planning to do all the reading for. and i'm late (i think) in getting feedback back to my chair about exam-lists.
laundry-list, anybody? why are they called that? laundry doesn't involve lists. you take what's dirty, shove it in the machine, guess what's best on the dial, add potions & go. which reminds me i need to do laundry.
if only scholarship were half so simple.
listening to:
Posted by ttobryan at May 15, 2005 06:28 PM